Art-ist State-ment

I cannot be quieted. I am constantly questioning and searching—attempting, however fruitlessly to quell the insatiable need to learn, to find answers, create solutions and thus, eventually, search for new problems. My drawings are observations of internal debates raging within myself, and how I truly relate to the outside world. I am searching to understand both the physical but also the metaphysical difference between brain and blood and heart and lung—where do these things exist in relation to the outer persona, and to others. I am interested by the complexity of the human psyche—the beautiful waste of life due to psychological trauma, disease, or deficiency. The mixture of memory, history, health, deterioration—it is all my fascination.

Through large-scale charcoal drawings, mixed media, film photography, and free verse, I record observations. Whatever realities I am looking for need not be limited by my own experience: in fact, experiences of others prove often to be more relevant than my own. I sense nostalgia for events, people, things, I have never—or rather, have yet, to come into contact with. It is impossible for me to live according to date and time. Most succinctly put—and to quote the late Richard Avedon—“ ‘…I haven’t lived chronologically. No one does’ “.

9.30.2010

Sneak Peek....



Latest shoot with Gold & Citrus...more to come! Check out http://goldandcitrus.com!

9.28.2010

Head first into photo

Just a little update:

In the past month, I seem to have fallen head first into photography after a long absence. I worked with SF Camerawork's First Exposure's program--their stunning out-reach program for underserved SF youth--documenting their thirteen posters in bus shelters around San Francisco. First Exposures collaborated with 826 Valencia's writing program to produce poetry/prose with photography. The results were wonderful. The photos are in the process of being edited. When I have final copies, they will be posted.

In addition, I worked with Sara & Rich Combs to shoot the newest lookbook for their jewelry line, Gold & Citrus. Working with Katie Quinn as the stylist, we shot some fantastic photos in the Presidio in San Francisco. Those photos are also being edited and when time comes for publication: you will see them here. Sara & Rich are amazing designers, with such a keen eye for statement and subtlety, I felt it was an honor to work with them. I look forward to seeing future lines.

And as a complete side note: I think we finally are having our summer.

7.07.2010






I've been reading Haruki Murakami.
I am late on this trend, but have arrived finally, nonetheless. And I must say, he is a magical writer. I crave the ability to structure narratives like he does: his characters often living multiple lives simultaneously and often, in "real time". Needless to say, I am fascinated by his poetic.

An example, perhaps:

"Time weighs down on you like an old, ambiguous dream. You keep on moving, trying to slip through it. But even if you go to the ends of the earth, you won't be able to escape it. Still, you have to go there--to the edge of the world. There's something you can't do unless you get there." (H.Murakami, Kafka on the Shore)




4.13.2010

Einmal ist keinmal


"What happens but once might as well not have happened at all"

I have been reading, The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera


I am fascinated.
"If we have only one life to live, we might as well not have lived at all"



The above image is a piece by Jane Alexander, a favorite artist of mine, from South Africa. The piece is titled "The Butcher Boys".

Juxtapoz magazine ran a fascinating article on her work months ago. She is really quite brilliant.

4.07.2010

A thousand dreams would awake me

"different colors, made of tears"


It is the 7 of April 2010.

I have not written in a thousand years.
I have collected things: a needlepoint piece about a light-bulb-popping-monster that I have yet to hang. A new plant. Drawings from Little Otsu.
I have been photographing...finally. A few rolls of 120. One of which I accidentally shot without realizing it was positive film...I hoping for something great to come of this.
I have been missing the east coast: mainly for the days of sun and warmth when it rains here, and for the sleepy mornings, late nights, and good food with my parents.
I have been re-arranging things: or at least, attempting to--rather, wanting to, planning to.


There are shows coming up:
MGMT at the Fillmore, April 12th
Little Dragon at the Independent, April 13th
Passion Pit, April 15th
Holly GoLightly, April 17th
((I need to get tickets for the last three))
and
at SF Camerawork: First Exposure's "Looking Forward, Giving Back": reception & presentation on April 21st.

and, I want to see Romeo & Juliet at the SF Ballet in May.

What else, what else?


OH I know: My neighbors are playing Neko Case's "Pretty Girls".
I am singing along, through the floorboards.

I could sleep a thousand years...


"Tree-son"


::I don't like the tendencies of stalking::


"oh, the things that I devour"



He said, "I just come in here now and then and look at her...
She looks just like my sister did.

I used to iron her hair in high-school"




A history of violence

louder than sirens
louder than bells

sweeter than heaven
hotter than hell.





...with teeth threaded like little charms...